This picture came up on Facebook from five years ago.
Awww, kinda missing these days. But nostalgia is a funny thing. This actually was a really lovely morning blueberry picking. But I had our nanny with me, so we had single man coverage, and I had a reason to have peace on my face. Someone else helped with diapers, or I did if I wanted to. Whenever I needed any help, it was there. If I was nursing one, she could take care of the other. On your own with those two was a lot of work. Fun work, often, but exhausting. Didn't always look so peaceful. Not having our nanny even a single day a week this year has been a difficult transition. I'm still struggling with it in terms of food prep, keeping our house organized and orderly. Taking on chairing a fundraiser for Willard Elementary School also is not the most peaceful thing to bring into one's life. Necessary work that I want to do for my community, but once this school year is over I am going to focus on my personal wellbeing and having a face that resonates that peaceful look on a more regular basis. I have it at points throughout my day being who I am and what I do. But I'm a yoga teacher who also is a mom with a marriage and a house and a mortgage and believes in putting in the work for community service, etc. I have a great practice and great tools, but I am a real person, too.